summertime

so now that im on summer vacation and all, you'd think id be out hangin out, enjoying my vaca. but im not, instead if im not out of the house by 8pm or 9pm, im pretty much at home browsing the internet and watching late night nbc shows. As lame as it sounds, i think it only makes sense, i work in the morning so the only days i really can hang out are the weekends, and why dont we do more during the weekend beats me, but this is how my summers have been the last couple years. On a lighter note, it's graduation season and Kristine is graduating and moving back to SD, FOREVER!!!!! lol. It amazes me that shes graduating 4 years after we graduated high school, im so proud :-D. Along with Kristine graduating, her younger bro. jay is graduating high school as well, and will be attending UCI in the fall.

so back to my summer vacation, this is usually the time when my friends and i play the most basketball, which is good, because i don't even do any cardio at the gym. I figured play ball 2 - 3 days a week, then lift weights 3 - 4 days of the week (i'm going to need to stick to this if i want to achieve my goal of loosing 10 lbs and replacing that with muscle) trying to get lean before i turn 22, or as lean as i can get lol. and this is where i end this quick post

Random recap / summer goal(s)

since the beginning of 2009 ive blogged about a number of things from my appearance on the super b-beat show to my possible return to the dance scene. In a matter of 6 months a lot has happend, im talking big things, for one r/d apparel finally has a website, we FINALLY have shirts for sale, ive gotten more involved with anakbayan san diego (i've still got a lot of work to do though), and MY LAKERS ARE IN THE NBA FINALS!!! lol. On a serious note though, some things in this past school semester has opened my eyes, and i am more then ever motivated to really get down to business (fuck you if you doubt me). With the first 6 months done, i hope the next 6 months has more in store for me, so on that note here are some of my summer goal(s):

-get a comma in my back account balance
-new r/d shirts
-get to know illustrator
-loose 10 lbs of fat, gain muscle
-turn 22 and do somn awesome!!! lol
-step up on my organizing/activism
-get DOPE with stick shift
-GET NEW WHIP!!

YES!!!!, after further discussion with the 'rents, we are planning on getting me a new car, AND I GET TO CHOOSE WHAT I WANT!!!! so i chose the 2009 civic si coupe
this baby right here, but not this this color




and thats about it for the past 6 motnhs, and what i want to do for the next 6 months. i will keep you all updated, which means this blog will have more activity instead of the monthly blog lol. till next time, peace

-RAWfiki

SUCCESS !!

still coming off of last nights awesome performance, Damn it felt good. No words can describe the rush I get when performing, i miss it. I still cant believe how awesome it was last night. thank you to everyone that came out to support. Who knows this might be the performance that will get me back to dancing.

if you missed it here it is!

familiar jitters

so because dancing was a part of my life for like 5-6 years of my life, that was all i knew, all i did. Performing in front of hundreds, even thousands became second nature to me. Fast forward 2 years and 7 months since my last performance (culture shock san diego shocase), and im nervous as fuck for this “parent show” that mira mesa dance team hosts annually. Why? I don’t want to fuck up, thats why, ive always taken pride in knowing ill pull through and put on a good show and the last time ive felt this nervous was over 2 years ago, yeah its been a while. omg wish me luck tonight hahaha

 

just some things on my mind

I feel like up to this point in my life that I've been blessed, undeserving? maybe?, but mostly blessed.

When I sit back and think about things i have accomplished and working on in my life, its pretty progressive/consistent. I've done things for myself to keep moving forward, or so i think, But I can't help but think about how my disappointing college career has been. As much as I feel blessed to have the things in my life, i feel undeserving because as of right now i feel like im letting people close to me down by not performing the way i know i can in school. Is it because my priorities are loosely organized? maybe, do i spread myself too thin and bite off more than i can chew? possibly, or am i too concentrated on trying to please myself while trying to please others as well? sure. When asked how I'm doing in school I pretty much sugar coat my situation by saying, "it's okay", or "just trying to get by". With my finals coming up i feel more undeserving than ever, it's to the point where i feel like if i really want to succeed in college EVERYTHING needs to go out the door, well not completely, but that's what it feels like, get rid of social life, extracurricular activities (bboyin, basketball, gym), orgs (KAMP, AB, ZULU), basically everything that makes me, ME, like everything im blessed with i feel needs to go out the door just to succeed in college. I'm feeling pressure to succeed, my parents aren't getting any younger, my gf is graduating this year from UCI, most of my friends will be out of college within the year, and here I am struggling to get out of remedial classes (non-transferable classes).*deep breath* What's done is done i just have to do better next time.

testing

Blogging from my g1, test test

5, 6, 7, 8....

So i guess the latest news is starting this friday i will be starting practices with some fellow mira mesa all male alumni for mira mesa dance team's parent show as a special alumni performance. I've missed the past few practices due to some prior engagements but i will be at 8 of the 10 practices left, on paper it doesn't look like i have time to learn the choreography, but i am confident i will come through. At first i was hesitant because of how my schedule has been, but when i checked again it turns out ill be good for the last 8. Maybe this will encourage me to get back into dancing and try out for cssd this coming december, or it could go the other way where i could finally put some closure on dancing and just say im done with it, either way this will be fun not to mention it's a cool way to honor my dancing roots (not bboying, but choreography).

Here is the all male team i was on in 2002 back in high school (guess who does the windmills hahaha)