this is a different kind of end of the year wrap up. i could sit here and tell you how much shit i learned and how much i've grown blah blah blah, but thats not what i wanted to do this time around. i took this survey that i saw on not so small talk's blog, and thought it would be cool to do for my blog as well. so as the first post of the new year here it is! enjoy!
1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before? have my own (along with erwin and JV) clothing company, and showcase our shirts at sfsu's talentado fashion show! :-D
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i don't think i had any specific ones.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? No.
4. Did anyone close to you die? No.
5. What countries did you visit? none
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009? money, and better time management.
7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory and why? nov. 7th the day me and "eva" met and took her home LOL
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? waking up everyday, and fighting through the struggle that is life.
9. What was your biggest failure? again TIME MAGAGEMENT!
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? nope
11. What was the best thing you bought? oh man 4 things 1) authentic LT jersey, 2)my G1, 3)PS3, and finally 4) 2010 honda civic si sedan aka eva lol
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? my friends. a bunch of them have good heads on their shoulders and are heading into the right path, and for that i look up to a lot of them.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? smh @ tiger woods, kanye, gloria macapagal arroyo, and floyd mayweather sr and jr. (fuck those guys)
14. Where did most of your money go? from jan - oct. money went to car insurance for nov and dec money went to car payments.
15. What did you really, really, really get excited about?getting my new car, the 2009 san diego chargers season, and kristine graduation from UCI :-D
16. What song will always remind you of 2009? Run this town - jay-z
17. Compared to this time last year are you:
Happier? yes
Thinner? i wouldn't say thinner, i've gained muscle mass due to crossfit.
Richer? nope, lol. it's all good money management is something i can improve on this year.
18. What do you wish you’d done more of? make more of an effort to go bboying on monday and wednesday
19. What do you wish you’d done less of? procrastinate.
20. How did you spend Christmas? usual family party, but it was 10 times better because the charger game was on, and we won! yeahyuh!! lol
21. How will you be spending new years? spent it with family & kristine again :-D, and finally saw the hangover
22. Did you fall in love in 2009? 24/7 365.
23. How many one-night stands? None.
24. What was your favorite TV program?family guy, community, Cleveland show, scrubs, mythbusters, comedy central presents.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? not that i can think of
26. What was the best book you read? didnt read any books in 2009, maybe something i can do in 2010
27. What was your biggest musical discovery? coleman hawkins album "at ease with coleman hawkins"
28. What did you want and you got? a brand new car, ps3, authentic LT jersey, and my G1 (although the battery life could be better lol)
29. What did you want and not get? i've got everything i need and want.
30. What was your favorite film of this year? UP, district 9, the'res a few more that i cant remember.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old did you turn?turned 22, spent it with the homies, and got really thrashed lol
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? if i knew what i was doing in my community is making a difference.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009? i have no idea how to describe my style TBH lol
34. What kept you sane? family, friends, and kristine
35. Which celebrity did you fancy the most? alicia keys, need i say more lol
36. What political issue stirred you the most? marriage equality, and immigration laws.
37. Who did you miss? my family in the philippines
38. Who was the best new person you met? Kasamas from different bayan organizations :-D
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:stay positive!
40. Quote or Song Lyric that sums up your year: "don't whine, don't complain, no excuses" and "don't give up, don't ever give up"
biggups and shot outs to:
Kristine
BnB
1520 sedgewick ave. Djs
Rock So Fresh
Swift Wizards Crew
R/D boys
SDA
Anakbayan SD
all the bayan USA orgs
KAMP
the MMHS kamp students, y'all are the best
and to you, the reader.
bring on 2010, im going to give you hell! LET'S GO!!!!
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Saturday, January 2, 2010
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
just some things on my mind
I feel like up to this point in my life that I've been blessed, undeserving? maybe?, but mostly blessed.
When I sit back and think about things i have accomplished and working on in my life, its pretty progressive/consistent. I've done things for myself to keep moving forward, or so i think, But I can't help but think about how my disappointing college career has been. As much as I feel blessed to have the things in my life, i feel undeserving because as of right now i feel like im letting people close to me down by not performing the way i know i can in school. Is it because my priorities are loosely organized? maybe, do i spread myself too thin and bite off more than i can chew? possibly, or am i too concentrated on trying to please myself while trying to please others as well? sure. When asked how I'm doing in school I pretty much sugar coat my situation by saying, "it's okay", or "just trying to get by". With my finals coming up i feel more undeserving than ever, it's to the point where i feel like if i really want to succeed in college EVERYTHING needs to go out the door, well not completely, but that's what it feels like, get rid of social life, extracurricular activities (bboyin, basketball, gym), orgs (KAMP, AB, ZULU), basically everything that makes me, ME, like everything im blessed with i feel needs to go out the door just to succeed in college. I'm feeling pressure to succeed, my parents aren't getting any younger, my gf is graduating this year from UCI, most of my friends will be out of college within the year, and here I am struggling to get out of remedial classes (non-transferable classes).*deep breath* What's done is done i just have to do better next time.
When I sit back and think about things i have accomplished and working on in my life, its pretty progressive/consistent. I've done things for myself to keep moving forward, or so i think, But I can't help but think about how my disappointing college career has been. As much as I feel blessed to have the things in my life, i feel undeserving because as of right now i feel like im letting people close to me down by not performing the way i know i can in school. Is it because my priorities are loosely organized? maybe, do i spread myself too thin and bite off more than i can chew? possibly, or am i too concentrated on trying to please myself while trying to please others as well? sure. When asked how I'm doing in school I pretty much sugar coat my situation by saying, "it's okay", or "just trying to get by". With my finals coming up i feel more undeserving than ever, it's to the point where i feel like if i really want to succeed in college EVERYTHING needs to go out the door, well not completely, but that's what it feels like, get rid of social life, extracurricular activities (bboyin, basketball, gym), orgs (KAMP, AB, ZULU), basically everything that makes me, ME, like everything im blessed with i feel needs to go out the door just to succeed in college. I'm feeling pressure to succeed, my parents aren't getting any younger, my gf is graduating this year from UCI, most of my friends will be out of college within the year, and here I am struggling to get out of remedial classes (non-transferable classes).*deep breath* What's done is done i just have to do better next time.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Patience
Patience-n-(pā-shəns): 1.the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like. 2.an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner. 3.quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence: to work with patience.
Since the start of the new year, i've been trying to be Patient. Patient with school, patient with my health, patient with friends/family/people in general, and patient with my bboying. 3 months in and i think im somewhat getting the hang of this, i mean i've been trying, trust me, since before the new year, but you know it just took some more growing up to really understand the meaning of being patient. Granted I still get overwhelmed, im not gonna sit here and lie to y'all, but learning how to be patient lets me take a step back, take a deep breath and really analyze situations im in. Aside from being patient, being optimistic helps too, i can see what i want, and where i want to get to, and ill be excited that i have a goal to get to BUT I DO NOT, i repeat DO NOT let myself down by thinking negatively about the obstacles that i have to go through to get to where i want to get to, feel me?. "PROMOB" as my homie Ray puts it, progressive mobbin, basically "stay pushing forward, never moving in reverse".
Patience and Optimism:
- on thing at a time
- do not let yourself get overwhelmed
- step back and take a deep breath
- think rationally and reasonably
this is pretty much where im at right now
peace.
Relax - Pacific Division
Since the start of the new year, i've been trying to be Patient. Patient with school, patient with my health, patient with friends/family/people in general, and patient with my bboying. 3 months in and i think im somewhat getting the hang of this, i mean i've been trying, trust me, since before the new year, but you know it just took some more growing up to really understand the meaning of being patient. Granted I still get overwhelmed, im not gonna sit here and lie to y'all, but learning how to be patient lets me take a step back, take a deep breath and really analyze situations im in. Aside from being patient, being optimistic helps too, i can see what i want, and where i want to get to, and ill be excited that i have a goal to get to BUT I DO NOT, i repeat DO NOT let myself down by thinking negatively about the obstacles that i have to go through to get to where i want to get to, feel me?. "PROMOB" as my homie Ray puts it, progressive mobbin, basically "stay pushing forward, never moving in reverse".
Patience and Optimism:
- on thing at a time
- do not let yourself get overwhelmed
- step back and take a deep breath
- think rationally and reasonably
this is pretty much where im at right now
peace.
Relax - Pacific Division
Thursday, January 1, 2009
'09, BRING IT ON!!
When I think about what kind of year I had in 2008, I never would have thought id be where I'm at right now. within the past 12 months I've joined 2 more non-profit orginizations (KAMP, Anakbayan San Diego ) aside from zulu which helped me grow into a better person, helped me re-identify with my filipino-american self, all thanks to the homie Ray of cool kids, who introduced me to these orgs, made new friends, got closer to old friends, I VOTED, mine and krisitne's relationship has gotten a whole lot stronger, my eyes have been opned up to things i never would have thought of in 2007, and CHANGE for me, for my community and for this country.
It's amazing how much change can happen to one person in the course of 12 months, but with these changes came more challenges. Challenges like finding a new balance in life trying to fit in friends, bboying, organizations, school, family, girlfriend, RE.DEF, yeah 2008 was a BIG year for me. Having to balance all of these helped/forced me to mature a little bit more, which isnt such a bad thing, all this change just means i learned how to write reminders, and made me realized that i need to start using an organizer haha.
A lot of growth happend this past year and much like this blog, it was unstructured, it was more like a "take it and run with it" kinda year, you know?, I didn't even think id be doing things to better my quality of life. Just like the years past one of my biggest goals was to make sure I try to keep my friends close and build on new friendships, and this year was probably the best year for this, not for the purpose of saying "OH YEAH I HAVE THIS MANY FRIENDS BLAH BLAH BLAH", naw , not me, but for the purpose of knowing who my friends REALLY are.
As Great as 2008 was, It did have its low points. One being that the Chargers lost in the AFC championship game against the patriots, ah well. Another is the san diego padres whole season, yeah having 99 looses in one season is never a good thing. There was actually a point and time this past year that i felt like I was just existing not living meaning there were some emotional breakdowns. My grandmother in the PI passed away, but i couldn't go with my family to attend her funeral because school was starting at the same time, and since the first couple weeks of school is so packed and teachers drope students not there on either the first day of class or the first week of class I just couldn't pay for my classes then get dropped :-( . but even with all that said, 2008 was still a great year
some 2008 highlights:
- joining KAMP
- joining Anakbayan SD
- RE.DEF "sample" shirts haha
- attending my first ever charger game (also got to see the great brett favre play)
- turning 21
- VEGAS!
- New wizard member
- saw Q-tip in concert
- Kristine's cocktail party in irvine
- filipino studies course
- got back into playing basketball
- KAMP retreat
- 6 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!
and now my shout outs:
-BnB/sensations
-rock so fresh
-1520 segwick avenue dj's
-swift wizards crew
-cypher city kings
- KAMP
-Anakbayan
- condo/sda
-Kristine
thank you all for such a memorable year!
peace and love
It's amazing how much change can happen to one person in the course of 12 months, but with these changes came more challenges. Challenges like finding a new balance in life trying to fit in friends, bboying, organizations, school, family, girlfriend, RE.DEF, yeah 2008 was a BIG year for me. Having to balance all of these helped/forced me to mature a little bit more, which isnt such a bad thing, all this change just means i learned how to write reminders, and made me realized that i need to start using an organizer haha.
A lot of growth happend this past year and much like this blog, it was unstructured, it was more like a "take it and run with it" kinda year, you know?, I didn't even think id be doing things to better my quality of life. Just like the years past one of my biggest goals was to make sure I try to keep my friends close and build on new friendships, and this year was probably the best year for this, not for the purpose of saying "OH YEAH I HAVE THIS MANY FRIENDS BLAH BLAH BLAH", naw , not me, but for the purpose of knowing who my friends REALLY are.
As Great as 2008 was, It did have its low points. One being that the Chargers lost in the AFC championship game against the patriots, ah well. Another is the san diego padres whole season, yeah having 99 looses in one season is never a good thing. There was actually a point and time this past year that i felt like I was just existing not living meaning there were some emotional breakdowns. My grandmother in the PI passed away, but i couldn't go with my family to attend her funeral because school was starting at the same time, and since the first couple weeks of school is so packed and teachers drope students not there on either the first day of class or the first week of class I just couldn't pay for my classes then get dropped :-( . but even with all that said, 2008 was still a great year
some 2008 highlights:
- joining KAMP
- joining Anakbayan SD
- RE.DEF "sample" shirts haha
- attending my first ever charger game (also got to see the great brett favre play)
- turning 21
- VEGAS!
- New wizard member
- saw Q-tip in concert
- Kristine's cocktail party in irvine
- filipino studies course
- got back into playing basketball
- KAMP retreat
- 6 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!
and now my shout outs:
-BnB/sensations
-rock so fresh
-1520 segwick avenue dj's
-swift wizards crew
-cypher city kings
- KAMP
-Anakbayan
- condo/sda
-Kristine
thank you all for such a memorable year!
peace and love
Saturday, October 18, 2008
What's up?
think about this:
in college you have to choose two out of the three:
a.social life
b.grades
c.sleep
no right or wrong answer, just re-evaluate your life and think for a minute.
my answers:
a and b, because i don't want to miss out in life.
Since my last post was an event flyer, let me make it up by posting something with more content, even though no one reads this shit, because maybe some feel like i have nothing interesting to say.
first things first:
the presidential race:
I will take part in the voting, but i feel like i don't have a strong enough reason for who im going to vote for because i haven't really kept up with all thats going on. Not to mention i was never really interested in politics to begin with, until now that i know what will happen WILL affect me, well there's that and the fact that i'm given this "right" to vote, all i wanna say is, WHOEVER is elected president better take us out of this hell hole that you-know-who put us in.
school life:
As of now, everything is okay?. Financially im broke, why?, $9 an hour and choosing to work part time (15 - 18 hrs a week) puts me in a place where i actually have to decide between gas and food, gas usually wins. If im lucky ill have a spare $20, but even that isn't enough to get me by. At this rate it'll take me forever to get my books.
I would ask my parents for books but seeing how they filled for bankruptcy not to long ago, and they had to go to the Philippines so my mom can say bye to my grandmother before she passed away, THERE'S NO WAY IN HELL ILL GET MY BOOKS FROM THEM. so i've narrowed my options between these; either apply for a student credit card, or just get by this semester w/o books and make sure my tests and quizzes do it for me. Now the credit card might be better buuuuuuut, seeing how our economy is in a dismal state and with my cash flow running on empty, that would just put me in more debt, and the whole gettin by just on quizzes and tests alone might not be that wise either, because my math professor has already threatened to drop me if i don't start turning in more HW. can you say "pickle".
personal life:
Outside of school, life ain't so bad, i mean meetings twice a week (soon to be 3), working monday wednesday friday, bboying twice a week, its not that bad. The only thing is that weekends are the ONLY, i mean ONLY days i can just be out all night, the rest of the days i either have to be in bed by 1 or not go out at all. which in that case i just watch some of my favorite shows online (because my TV broke and i dont have a replacement) like family guy, scrubs, still standing, etc.... I know lame, If im not feeling lazy ill be in the gym.
Being apart of non profit organizations has put my life on a different path. A path i never would have thought of in high school, or even a year ago. As a member of the san deigo zulu nation it's kind of hard to get the idea of being an activist, but getting involved with KAMP and anakbayan we do more within our community not that zulu doesn't do anything, we do what we can as a chapter but because zulu is mostly composed of people with everyday 9 - 5's and college students and the fact that we meet once a month i think it makes it a little hard to be able to do MORE but i'm proud of what we have done. With KAMP i feel like im really making a mark within my community because we as KAMP are able to put ourselves out there to offer our help for the youth, and you know it's pretty cool when you see one of your students and they refer to you as "kuya". Anakbayan on the other hand is this :
"Anakbayan,SD is a comprehensive autonomous National Democratic youth and student organization. We seek to empower the youth and the community in San Diego by the grassroots educating, organizing, and mobilizing of youth to create systemic change. AB,SD seeks to propagate the National Democratic struggle in the Philippines and all principled pro-people’s struggles locally and throughout the world, thereby enhancing the quality of life of Filipin@s and other oppressed peoples nationally—especially the youth and the larger community."
before anakbayan and kamp i never really thought about what it meant to be filipino american in our society. With all i have learned and still to be learned i have a better understanding of womens rights/femininity and homosexuality, i feel like im a different person, a better person, and definitely a more conscious person. The circle of friends that is KAMP and Anakbayan has changed my life forever, being taught lessons i can pass on to my kids and now wanting to be a community leader along with some of my close friends brings fulfillment in my life. I still have a lot to learn and a lot more experiences to go through to earn my keep as a community leader.
everything else:
BBOYING - it's going alright, i'm going to go on record to say that IM NOT GOING TO BE AT EVERY PRACTICE, JAM, EVENT, or whatever. I love bboying but its not my life.
Fitness - basketball once a week and dancing twice a week, not too much goin on. I will step it up with the gym soon though.
one question thats never really been answered: where does social change start?
one of many answers:
a quote from BAMBU (native guns):
"So, to create change and to make a real shift in our society, it's not as difficult as you think. You know what I'm sayin? The process might be slower than you like, but once those series of events begin, especially with yourself, you'll see that the individual becomes a group of individuals. And that group creates the climate for social change. You feel me?
So, you gotta educate yourself. Organize yourself. Recognize that you are not simply one person, but a bunch of strings bound into a rope, you know what I'm sayin? And you could pull yourself out this shit."
in college you have to choose two out of the three:
a.social life
b.grades
c.sleep
no right or wrong answer, just re-evaluate your life and think for a minute.
my answers:
a and b, because i don't want to miss out in life.
Since my last post was an event flyer, let me make it up by posting something with more content, even though no one reads this shit, because maybe some feel like i have nothing interesting to say.
first things first:
the presidential race:
I will take part in the voting, but i feel like i don't have a strong enough reason for who im going to vote for because i haven't really kept up with all thats going on. Not to mention i was never really interested in politics to begin with, until now that i know what will happen WILL affect me, well there's that and the fact that i'm given this "right" to vote, all i wanna say is, WHOEVER is elected president better take us out of this hell hole that you-know-who put us in.
school life:
As of now, everything is okay?. Financially im broke, why?, $9 an hour and choosing to work part time (15 - 18 hrs a week) puts me in a place where i actually have to decide between gas and food, gas usually wins. If im lucky ill have a spare $20, but even that isn't enough to get me by. At this rate it'll take me forever to get my books.
I would ask my parents for books but seeing how they filled for bankruptcy not to long ago, and they had to go to the Philippines so my mom can say bye to my grandmother before she passed away, THERE'S NO WAY IN HELL ILL GET MY BOOKS FROM THEM. so i've narrowed my options between these; either apply for a student credit card, or just get by this semester w/o books and make sure my tests and quizzes do it for me. Now the credit card might be better buuuuuuut, seeing how our economy is in a dismal state and with my cash flow running on empty, that would just put me in more debt, and the whole gettin by just on quizzes and tests alone might not be that wise either, because my math professor has already threatened to drop me if i don't start turning in more HW. can you say "pickle".
personal life:
Outside of school, life ain't so bad, i mean meetings twice a week (soon to be 3), working monday wednesday friday, bboying twice a week, its not that bad. The only thing is that weekends are the ONLY, i mean ONLY days i can just be out all night, the rest of the days i either have to be in bed by 1 or not go out at all. which in that case i just watch some of my favorite shows online (because my TV broke and i dont have a replacement) like family guy, scrubs, still standing, etc.... I know lame, If im not feeling lazy ill be in the gym.
Being apart of non profit organizations has put my life on a different path. A path i never would have thought of in high school, or even a year ago. As a member of the san deigo zulu nation it's kind of hard to get the idea of being an activist, but getting involved with KAMP and anakbayan we do more within our community not that zulu doesn't do anything, we do what we can as a chapter but because zulu is mostly composed of people with everyday 9 - 5's and college students and the fact that we meet once a month i think it makes it a little hard to be able to do MORE but i'm proud of what we have done. With KAMP i feel like im really making a mark within my community because we as KAMP are able to put ourselves out there to offer our help for the youth, and you know it's pretty cool when you see one of your students and they refer to you as "kuya". Anakbayan on the other hand is this :
"Anakbayan,SD is a comprehensive autonomous National Democratic youth and student organization. We seek to empower the youth and the community in San Diego by the grassroots educating, organizing, and mobilizing of youth to create systemic change. AB,SD seeks to propagate the National Democratic struggle in the Philippines and all principled pro-people’s struggles locally and throughout the world, thereby enhancing the quality of life of Filipin@s and other oppressed peoples nationally—especially the youth and the larger community."
before anakbayan and kamp i never really thought about what it meant to be filipino american in our society. With all i have learned and still to be learned i have a better understanding of womens rights/femininity and homosexuality, i feel like im a different person, a better person, and definitely a more conscious person. The circle of friends that is KAMP and Anakbayan has changed my life forever, being taught lessons i can pass on to my kids and now wanting to be a community leader along with some of my close friends brings fulfillment in my life. I still have a lot to learn and a lot more experiences to go through to earn my keep as a community leader.
everything else:
BBOYING - it's going alright, i'm going to go on record to say that IM NOT GOING TO BE AT EVERY PRACTICE, JAM, EVENT, or whatever. I love bboying but its not my life.
Fitness - basketball once a week and dancing twice a week, not too much goin on. I will step it up with the gym soon though.
one question thats never really been answered: where does social change start?
one of many answers:
a quote from BAMBU (native guns):
"So, to create change and to make a real shift in our society, it's not as difficult as you think. You know what I'm sayin? The process might be slower than you like, but once those series of events begin, especially with yourself, you'll see that the individual becomes a group of individuals. And that group creates the climate for social change. You feel me?
So, you gotta educate yourself. Organize yourself. Recognize that you are not simply one person, but a bunch of strings bound into a rope, you know what I'm sayin? And you could pull yourself out this shit."
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