the wrath of raf

I've expressed myself about this with various people in my circle of friends, but it's just something I cannot keep to myself anymore.

I thought, when I graduated high school 5 years ago that all that kind of drama will stay in high school. I couldn't have been anymore wrong about that, i guess no matter where you go or how much you want to grow up and do new things, high school type of drama will always be there, not towards me persai, but with whatever im involved in. It's probably got to be THE MOST frustrating thing when I hear about ADULTS having beef. Seriously, beef?!?!? over some dumb ass shit.

I WANT TO BE AN ORGANIZER!! (kamp/zulu/anakbayan, I represent 3 different grass roots organizations.) and having to be mixed in with dumb ass beef is really discouraging. Don't get me wrong, it's not so bad to the point where I just want to stop, but discouraging nonetheless. Just thinking about how dumb some of the beef makes me sad, not sad for ME, sad for my COMMUNITY!, sad because we cant speak unity if we can't even squash the beef, and sad because the youth won't have a solid idea of what my organization(s) really stand for.

Maybe im just angered because i've been educated on how to be an organizer. Maybe because i really care about my community. or MAYBE because before I DIE, i want to make an impact in OUR COMMUNITY! and this beef is keeping me from doing that with the people i organize with. I can't really tell you what is making me feel this hurt and angered but i am.

this isn't a vent, but more a plea for all of us to swallow our pride, step back and look a the bigger picture. do you see it? its beautiful isn't it? our community and issues facing OUR YOUTH is bigger than our organizations, it's bigger than any medallion we could wear, its bigger than any fist we could put in the air. from the bottom of my heart and on behalf of san diego's youth please recognize and realize the bigger picture.

educate, mobilize, and organize.
peace, love, unity and having fun.